30th November, 2008
This Is The Day Before The Paper
Yes, I have a paper due tomorrow. It’s a wonderfully nice paper that I must get an A on or else I will pretty much not pass the class. Luckily, I changed the grading option to Pass/Not Pass, but still… having a “Not Pass” isn’t a good thing to carry on a transcript.
Friday was pretty busy. I woke up at 4am, showered, and then went shopping at Macy’s at 5am. Yes, that early. There are usually quite a bit of women there ravaging the sale racks. I was actually shoved to the side as a woman tried to get to the Coach purses. Crazy shit. I finished getting most of the things I needed to buy for myself and for others. The last thing that I still want is a pair of ankle boots. I was looking for them, but I found a good pair of knee-high boots instead that I love and can’t wait to wear soon. I later met up with a friend, DP and helped him shop for the rest of the day. He’s a friend I met at VSA and we’ll both be on Cabinet next semester. I was done shopping around 11 when I met up with him and then spent the next four hours walking around the mall again.
Afterward, I went home to rest for a few minutes before getting ready for my date (yes, date) with CC. I was really dreading it because I was dead tired from shopping and because I didn’t want him to get the wrong idea. Although it was a little uncomfortable at times, I had an enjoyable time. He took me to a fondue place where we had three different “courses.” First was the cheese fondue. It was alright; not something that I particularly liked a whole lot. The second course was a whole crapload of meat that we needed to cook ourselves. We chose duck, scallops, chicken, venison, shrimp, and calamari. Those were yummy. The last, and my favorite course, was the chocolate fondue. It was delicious.
Saturday was filled with more festivities. I met up with NZ, CZ, and MP for some good bowl of pho (Vietnamese noodle soup). After lunch, CZ and NZ left for a bit while I went to go pick up JYL and her sister. All four of us, JYL, JYL’s sister, MP and I drove around for a bit before returning back to my house while we waited for NZ to come back. Then all five of us went to Downtown San Jose for some good ol’ ice skating. I hadn’t ice skated in a long time, so it was fun. We then had dinner at The Loft. I ordered a piece of chicken, but it was so ridiculously huge that I had a hard time finishing it. JYL and her sister ended up finishing it for me.
NN was supposed to meet up with us afterward, but she bailed. Everybody went their own ways after dinner except for MP and I. We hit up a few bars until her sister picked us up so we could get MP’s car (we were stranded since NZ drove us there). Then we picked up another friend and hit up some more bars. I’m glad I went out so often because I was able to order a few cocktails for us. I like our last bar because there was a small dance floor and by then, I was pretty buzzed. I spotted a relatively cute guy and I guess he got the hint and/or was drunk and horny, so he started to dance with me. It was very short since the bar was going to close soon. I was a little turned off by him because he right away asked me if he could kiss me, asked me for my number, and told me his “high class” profession (financial director) all before he asked me my name. Oh, he also asked for a lunch date for the very next day. I thought that he was reeking of desperation, but since I thought he was a little cute, I gave him my number anyway.
After a long, but very fun day, I passed out.
Today, I got a ride back to Berkeley from DP’s parents. They seem very nice. DP and I went to mass together, had student dinner, and parted ways. Now, I am here. Haven’t restarted on my paper yet, but I don’t plan on sleeping tonight anyway.
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Is it weird that I kept talking about EC all last night? I didn’t mean to, but he just kept coming up and throughout the whole holiday break, I kept thinking about him, even when I shouldn’t have been thinking about him. I know that there’s nothing I can do now and that I know that if I start anything with him again, he needs to show me that he’s actually going to make an effort to be with me and not keep it “casual.” But, he’s not. So I need to stop thinking about him or else I’ll do something that I shouldn’t do.
I do miss him though. He may have lacked in a few departments, but overall, I saw myself being comfortable with him.
Maybe in another lifetime.
Tags: bars, Black Friday, CZ, DP, EC, ice skating, MP, NZ, shopping
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25th August, 2008
This Is Near The End
…of my 2-week summer vacation. And boy, was it lovely. Surprisingly, I’ve been keeping busy since I got back last week.
Since I got such a shitty job on my mani/pedi in San Diego, I went to my normal salon on Thursday and had them redo my nails. Afterwards, I met up with some people from church to go karaoke. For the first hour, it was fun, but one of the group members was tired and kind of ruined the mood… to me at least.
Thinking about it now, I don’t know if I did anything in particular on Friday. Oh wait, I lied. I did do a lot on Friday. I went to SF to go shopping! I opened a Macy’s account and bought a lot of stuff, not just at Macy’s, but other places too. This is my list of stuff: three purses and two dresses (Macy’s), two jeans (Express), five bottles of soap and five little bottles of anti-bacterial gel (Bath and Body Works), bath pillow (The Body Shop), five panties (Victoria’s Secret), and six panties (Frederick’s of Hollywood). In my defense… they were on sale!!! If that doesn’t work, then I’m claiming all these purchases an investment.
On Saturday, an awesome, totally cool, freaking amazing out-of-state friend, JLS, had some time to hang out so I met with her and another one of her friends in a nearby town, Dublin. We were hoping, or had seen RSVP’ed, some more people, but they didn’t show. JLS, her friend, and I had some quick food before her friend had to leave. We decided to go into see a movie and chose Death Race, mostly because Jason Statham was in it and he’s freaking hot as all hell. It was an enjoyable movie and I’m just glad I got to see him half naked. We could find anything else to do afterward, so we sat and talked for a while, stalling my trip back to Berkeley. I didn’t want to leave, but I know I had to. She was tired from her red-eye and I had already missed one train. It was a good night and I wouldn’t have traded it for anything.
So Sunday rolled around and I had spent the night before doing a massive clean up in my room. I took care of all the stuff on the floor as well as all the clutter on my desks. Why? Well, one, I wanted a clean room and two, I was anticipating some company *ahem* EC *ahem*, so I wanted the room to look good. Since I couldn’t go out with EC on Saturday night, he set up something for Sunday. He didn’t tell me what he had planned, but I wasn’t expecting to get dirty, so I wore some really cute stuff. I had on a white cotton dress with a short-sleeve blazer topped with a pair of cute wedges. And where does this boy take me? To a baseball game. Talk about being overdressed. Anyway, the game was good to watch. I can be a sports person, I just never really have the patience for it on TV. If I’m out at the event, then I can watch because I don’t have other distractions. We saw the SF Giants play the San Diego Padres. Giants won, so that made the game much more fun. There were a few good plays so I’m happy.
On the way back to Berkeley, we thought we’d go through Treasure Island because both he and I had never seen it. Man, it is ghetto. Treasure Island is an odd shape. One part of it, the part with the tunnel, is tall with lots of trees, but the further away you go from the highway, the flatter and more ghetto it gets. It was a nice drive through though. By the time we got back to Berkeley, it was still a little early for dinner, so we headed to my place to hang out. Thank God I had my room cleaned! After a while, we finally got hungry, ate some sushi, headed back again to my place until it was time for me to go to church at 10pm. Overall, it was a nice day.
I’m overthinking things too much. I also noticed that I’m using SB as a comparison point for all future stuff. I don’t want to nor do I mean to, but it happens. Now, don’t get me wrong; I don’t want him back, but I remember how I felt. I remember how good it felt to be with him, both sexually and not. That feeling of being in love was so special and rare and unfortunately, unrequited. However, for that brief moment in time, I was utterly happy. Now, I’m looking so hard to find that again, or to see if I have and it’s not fair. It’s not fair to me and it’s not fair to the person I’m comparing. Again, it’s not that I’m comparing the two men side-by-side, but I’m comparing how each made me feel and that’s just not right for me to do. How do I stop it though?
Well, I’ve got at least two weeks to think about this. EC is going out of town for a wedding this weekend. I should sign onto my other screen name though and leave my options open.
Tags: dating, EC, JLS, Newman, SB, SF Giants, shopping
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