10th July, 2008
This Is When It Got Better
Today, as aggravating as it was, was a bit of a better day compared to the rest. My mood picked up and I think in general, I was holding myself up a little more.
Monday, Tuesday… they were blurs. Oh wait… I remember part of Tuesday. JYL and I did some quick shopping. We wanted to stop by a gothic/dark store to see if they had any riding crops (yes, for the bedroom), and surprisingly, they just happened to be sold out when we went in. We left and decided to stop by Hot Topic for some corset/bustier shopping. I was a little bummed because I picked up what I thought was my size, but the band/waist area was not tight enough for me. I did end up finding another corset in a “smaller” size that fit well, so I bought that, a “matching” pair of undies (they didn’t really match in terms of their patterns, but the colors did; I just didn’t want to wear the itty-bitty butt floss that came with the corset), and stockings. Of course, I have no real immediate need to wear these; I’ve just always wanted to have one, you know? I think they’re hot.
Today, I set up plans to go have dinner with XG and MJ. I also invited JYL to come along too. We went to Pasta Pomodoro to eat. For some reason though, I had lost my appetite, so I didn’t eat much of the pasta. I don’t know if it was my mood or the heat, but I didn’t really feel all that hungry.
It turns out that MJ and I are fine. I overthink things too often. I had forgotten that she had no internet, so she couldn’t get back to my Facebook questions; she also ran out of credits on her pay-as-you-go phone, so she couldn’t call either. I know, she could have borrowed someone’s phone or internet, but I don’t think she’s that kind of person to do so. Actually, it’s a little amusing. See, I thought that she and SS clicked really well because they were spending a lot of time together. It turns out that SS just really wanted to spend time with MJ and not always the other way around. A lot of stuff went down during the weekend in Vegas that opened MJ’s eyes as to why I choose not to actually spend time with SS outside of this apartment very often. The only time I do is for parties.
So it’s all good, all clear. MJ and I griped quite a bit about SS and we’re all done now. Well, kind of. Maybe MJ’s done, but since I still live here, I won’t be for a long time. I know, I could have a worse roommate; I’ve heard of worse stories, but this is pretty bad.
After the dinner, JYL and I headed back to my place. I wanted to set up the router before watching the movie so we could stop leeching off the neighbor, so I tried to do that. First, let me tell you the story of the router:
Thursday morning, I noticed that the router’s acting funky. It doesn’t turn off, but it acts like it’s turned off because the only light that will blink is the DMZ light (or something; I forget). It’s happened before, so no big, unplug then plug it back in. Well, it happened a few times, so I decided to contact Tech Support. They tell me the firmware needs to be upgraded, so off I go to do that. Well, in the process of doing that, the upgrade fails and due to that failure, it breaks the router. I know, go figure, right?
At that point, I’m pretty irritated. I call to fix a problem only to have them break my router. Of course, it’s Thursday afternoon and Friday was a holiday, so they couldn’t process my RMA until Monday. So they shipped late Monday night and I was able to receive two days later (today/Wednesday). Luckily, on my way to class, I saw to UPS trucks and hoped that one of them would carry my package, which he did, so I was pretty happy. Otherwise, no one would have been home to answer the door and we’d have to wait yet another day for the package.
So I get home from dinner and start trying to set it up. First, I realize that they sent me a refurbished router, which I hate receiving. Second, because they no longer produced my router model, they had to send me a different model. They listed one model number on the RMA status page, but sent a different model. At this point, I’m in no mood to send it back or dispute it; I just want it to work. However, I do want them to take note that I was sent a different model. Third, they send me a bare router; no manuals, no instructions, nothing. All I received were the hardware parts and the “RUN THIS FIRST CD.” Because I don’t want to screw anything up, I run the damned set up CD. Well, at some point, it prompts me for a password… which I don’t know. I spend about 15 minutes trying to search for it before I contact Tech Support again. After chatting with a woman who probably knew nothing about routers and what to do, she tells me that I didn’t need to run the CD in the first place. Well, shit. If they didn’t want me to run the CD then 1) why did they stick in a “RUN THIS FIRST” CD and 2) why did they put stickers over the ports that said “RUN THE CD FIRST”?
The logic these people have, I swear. Bugs the shit out of me. Anyway, so I get to work, finally. JYL and I watch our movie, P.S. I Love You, while painting our nails. I needed to paint my fingernails again because I’m headed home this weekend and my previous colors were too dark for the family. It was good spending that time with JYL. I like girl time; I don’t really get too much of it unfortunately.
Then I decide to be relatively nice (and partially to save me the trouble of having to move the router) and help figure out SS’s wireless problem. She couldn’t connect to the router and after looking around for about five minutes, realized that her system can’t handle an AES password encryption, so I had to change the router settings to WPA-TKIP. Then she couldn’t load any pages because her connection was at 1 Mbps, so another 10 minutes to sort that out. I did some Googling and found a solution; her card is a bit defective in that it can only successfully transfer data from a G-only network. Most networks are set to be mixed, in case some people have B cards, but I had to change it once more. Of course, I don’t even get a “thank you” from SS.
Oh yeah, forgot one more piece of news. So before the dinner, I stopped by SB’s apt to pick up my books that I told him to read that he never did read. It was… I don’t know. Sad, confirming, a little liberating. I was sad because MC hadn’t found a new roommate for the room, so looking at it bare was weird and trying to envision (although I shouldn’t have) all the things that had happened in that tiny room was a little depressing. It was confirming and liberating because I finally saw with my own eyes that he had moved out. At this point, whether he had moved to another place in the city, back to his parents, or to Washington, it doesn’t matter. I don’t have to see him again and I have some peace of mind that I can’t find him in that room anymore.
Anyway, tired. Long post, sorry folks. I really have to break this up by writing more often, but in my whole depressed mood, I didn’t feel like it. Good night!
Tags: JYL, Linksys, MC, MJ, SB, shopping, SS, XG
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23rd May, 2008
This Was Very Tiring
I finally got a moment of rest this afternoon. Sure, I didn’t spend it particularly wisely since my room is a complete mess again (despite having had it clean just a few days ago), I haven’t washed dishes in a while, and one of my laundry baskets is full.
Soon. I will get to them soon.
Well, the good news is that my loans were finally written on a check so I can pick it up on Tuesday and not be worried about making rent. I can also finally mail in all of my checks for all the bills that need to be paid soon.
Today was nothing particularly spectacular. I woke up and decided to take care of some crap and again, ended being late to work, even though he had told me to show up an hour later than normal. What the hell, right? I just cannot seem to get to work early or on time. This is frustrating.
So SB’s phone has been disconnected temporarily because of unpaid bills. How am I not surprised? According to my birdie (aka his roommate), his old coworker is planning on lending him some money to take care of June’s rent and he will use the last month’s rent for July. I won’t be surprised if he doesn’t end up getting the loan and just moves out by the end of June. Well, I gave him the deadline for tomorrow and if I hear nothing from him, see nothing pending in my account, then I will call his parents on Monday. No exceptions.
Well, even with the check coming through today, I’m still upset. MH and I… we… just hit a rough patch this week. He’s going through some stuff and he’s a very private person. I get that, I do. At first, when I inquired, I must have hit the wrong nerve because he ended up getting upset at me. I understood how my reaction may have come off wrong, so I apologized and just didn’t ask anymore questions. However, that didn’t mean I wasn’t concerned for his well-being and happiness, even if he does have his own way of dealing with it. So for a few days, I would ask him how he was feeling. The first two days, he replied, “Same.” On the third day, he said that didn’t like my asking him that and I didn’t understand why he was upset by my asking. I wasn’t asking for details or anything; I just wanted to know that he was okay and I hoped every time I asked that he would say, “Better.” I worry and when someone worries, it doesn’t hurt to ask questions, right?
Anyway, so on the fourth day, which was yesterday I suppose, I asked him again and the next thing I know, I’m upset, I’m crying and then we just stopped talking. Tomorrow is his birthday and I was planning to stop by with something small. I asked if he wanted to do something but 1) he doesn’t really celebrate his birthday and doesn’t want to do anything big and 2) wasn’t going to feel up to it with his issues. So I proposed to do something just really small; I was going to go get chicken nuggets and stick a candle in it. That was it. No card, no flowers, no balloons… just the candle. When I went to SF the other day, I came across some candles that spelled out his name and I thought it was genius, so I bought them and planned to stick them in the nuggets tomorrow.
But since we last parted badly, I don’t know. His place, unfortunately, isn’t that secure, so I could break in and leave it on his doorstep, but I don’t know if that would be taken the wrong way. I don’t want to do it another day because any other day wouldn’t be his birthday. If I leave it on his doorstep, I can’t light the candles and I don’t want to knock and then run because… no.
Well, I have until tomorrow morning to decide, but it just sucks to have to make this decision. I don’t want to be upset with him, but I am.
That’s only one side of my week drama too.
I’ve been a board member for about two years now at a particular message board and recently, the board owner (the one who only hosts the board) thought that it would be best if we started an entirely new board and wiped this one out. The staff (including myself) talked about it and it was a close vote (3-2), but it was decided that we would keep the board and all its posts. Even the board master (the one who is actually in charge of the board) wanted to keep everything the same and couldn’t understand why we needed it in the first place.
Well, coincidentally, in an effort to repair her Wordpress, the board owner somehow ended up wiping the entire domain clean. All of it from the files to the databases. Now, I can’t honestly understand how that can happen, but it did. Her webhost does weekly backups, so the latest copy she could get would be from Sunday, with or without a small fee. However, the owner showed no interest whatsoever in taking that route and only apologized for having lost the files. It was not only upsetting to us, the board members, but also to a blog owner that was hosted on her domain as well.
There was a lot of speculation, a lot of gossip and a lot of talking. Basically, there was shit talk amongst friends in the same circle. Even though I participated, I still felt bad. I haven’t done anything like that in so long and I know that it’s not a good feeling to know that someone in your social group is talking about you like that.
Anyway, so the board was restored and moved to a different server (mine in fact), but we still lost all the posts. There’s still a window of opportunity for us to retrieve them since it’s not Sunday yet, but again, there’s little hope that the former owner will actually get the damned database.
It’s been stressful. I’m tired. I need to sleep and shower. There are so many things on my to-do list right now. It’s intimidating. At some point, all these things will get done. Somehow.
Tags: MC, MH, SB, Vertigo
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