24th July, 2008
This Was Just Another Few Days… Kind Of
First off, I have a horrible toothache. Actually, thinking about it, it’s the first toothache I’ve ever had that didn’t result from some sort of dental work. It was strange because it started hurting midday, in between my brushing and my next meal. It started to hurt so bad that I had to take two Advils instead of one. I’ve got me a dentist appointment for this Saturday. I wish it could be sooner, but I can’t get away from school early enough to do so. Besides, the pain is tolerable enough to an extent where I can wait a few more days.
Second, I’ve decided that after my next two visits with my doctor, they will be my last, at least until the new year starts again. The pills aren’t helping me in the way they’re supposed to. I’m basically using them now to stay awake during class and that’s about it.
I heard from KM today. Well, kind of. I finally asked him why he had just been so turned off to me after having confessed all his feelings. Well, it turns out that he had wanted to get it off his chest, but wasn’t looking for a relationship. Once he told me that, I told him that I, too, was not interested in something exclusive, at least for the moment anyway. Well, he told me to call him tomorrow. We’ll see what happens?
I’ve been thinking lately about what someone had once said to me. I had only known him for a day or so, but what I remember is this: He looked into my eyes and said that even though I smile on the outside, there’s a lot of darkness and pain inside. Note that this person said this two years ago.
Sometimes I wonder, is it still there? If someone looks into my eyes, will that person see how much there is in my eyes? I don’t know, but it’s got me thinking.
Fuck, I’m sleepy, but I’ve got homework to finish. Maybe a nap.
Tags: doctor, KM
Posted at 1:14 am |
On July 24, 2008 at 5:40 am Julie said:
July 24, 2008 at 5:40 am
That one person who said that to you is really insightful. But at the same time, we all have some sort of pain inside us, right? Hope your tooth pain isn’t anything too serious!