1st January, 2008
This Is The New Year
Goodness, what a night. I must admit that this is the first time I’ve ever celebrated the new year coming in besides in my home. I also must admit that this night did not turn out the way I was expecting it to, or had even thought of.
A friend of mine, KM, called me to set up a dinner or lunch plan and since I enjoy eating with him, I agreed to go. We ended up going to dinner at a spaghetti restaurant and I must admit the food was pretty good. I had a really cheesy spaghetti dish, so I was happy. Since we finished our dinner kind of early, we both agreed that the night was too young for us to end, considering it was new year’s eve and all.
KM and I ended up meeting a friend of his and his buddies. We sat there for a while as they tried to get a cab to go to a party. Unfortunately by then, KM had already started drinking and was definitely in no shape to drive, which made the whole cab thing a little harder since there was a total of six of us. Anyway, we get to the party in one piece and probably spent about an hour there. KM had some more drinks as he and I just cruised around the people.
About fifteen minutes before midnight, the cops come and break up the party. However, we can’t leave since we have no mode of transportation, so we explain to the cops that we all need to wait for a cab. As I’m trying to call a cab, KM tries to lean in and kiss me. I stopped him because I felt that it was a bit awkward considering the fact that I’m on the phone and all.
Anyway, to save you some of the details, KM basically ends up confessing his crush to me. Well, he had mentioned that he had liked me before, but when he told me that, I thought that he was done crushing on me, which was why he told me in the first place. But tonight, he kept saying things, drunkenly, about how he had waited about a year and a half to have a shot with me and that from the moment he met me, he wanted to be with me. They were all things that I would have loved to hear, but it got cheapened by the fact that he was drunk.
I don’t know what to say to him. I mean, I admit that when I first met him, I thought he was a rather attractive person which was why I continued talking to him, but when I met him, I was dating DL. Shortly after my relationship with DL, I was already hooked on SB, so there really was no time for KM to slip in and he just stayed on the “friends” level. Right now, because I’m so used to him being there despite my physical attraction to him, I don’t know what to say to him. I don’t want to lead him on because I’m not ready for a relationship and honestly, I’m still not over SB. However, I hate awkward confrontations. I don’t know how much of this night he’ll remember, but I’ll remember it and I don’t know how to mention all this. We’ve never really talked on the phone; we were always texting each other to see when we could meet up and when we did, that’s when we’d talk.
I don’t know; I’ll either figure something out or just wait and see what happens.
Anyway, the night played out like this: the party broke up and so we stayed there for another hour or so trying to wait for the cab. The cab doesn’t show so we ended up getting a ride with someone to go to another nearby party because they were kicking us out of the first. So we call the cab again and request another two cars for us. During that time, KM manages to drunk dial his ex-girlfriend and argues with me about his ability to take me home. Of course, being the stubborn and sensible one, I tell him that he will not take me home. He will crash at the friend’s place until he sobers up and then take himself home, which is what he did. Well, at least the crashing part I know because when I left, he was already asleep.
Now, I’m back in my room at my parents’. It’s cold and I hate being cold, but what can you do? Anyway, I’m awfully tired now. Have a happy new year folks.
Tags: DL, KM, New Years'
Posted at 3:45 am |
On January 2, 2008 at 5:01 am Julie said:
January 2, 2008 at 5:01 am
Happy new year hon! I think moving on with KM will help you get over SB. However, you might want to talk to him about what’s going on after he is sober and see if he is willing to move slow since you are still hurting, and he may not know that.