26th March, 2008
This Is The Girls’ Night Out
A part of me is sad that I’m leaving the store. This is the closest I’ve ever been to having consistent female companionship in a long time and I know that if I quit, I won’t get that bonding experience anymore.
Last night, two of my coworkers, SK and LD, and I went out to a club. I hadn’t gone to a club in a long time, but this time it was fun. I dressed attractively and was impressed by the number of men wanting to dance with me. No, my boobs weren’t hanging out. However, I did have a backless shirt, so I’m pretty sure that’s what contributed to my attractiveness. Almost all of the men who danced with me were not my type, except the last one. In a way, he reminds me of a friend that I have here at Cal, NL. Now, I’m not attracted to NL in that way, but he is a good friend of mine and he’s also a good guy, so seeing this one at the club, in a way, it made me feel a little safer. It’s a weird feeling. Anyway, I only gave one person my number last night and it was him.
Other than that, most of my days have been relatively quiet. I go to work, get some shit done, and go home. My coworkers and I went grocery shopping a few days ago, which was nice. I was going to decline, but I thought that I would use that time to have some bonding done, you know? Like I mentioned before, I’m not usually this close to other women, so this is nice for me.
As for KM, well, it’s been quite a trip. Kind of. Okay, not really. It’s more me trying to get something set up than him doing something, but like I said, I don’t know what to do here. I’m trying to get him to just talk to me, to figure all this shit out, but nothing’s happening. He’s supposed to come up for dinner on Friday night, but I’m not too confident that he’ll actually show. I really need everything sorted out, but if it doesn’t, then should I wait? I don’t know; it’s a tough choice. I don’t want to put myself on hold for too long, you know? It’s like the dresses we put on hold at the store. We tell them they have a day and after that, someone else gets a shot at the dress. I know I’m not a dress, but should I treat myself the same way? Give someone a certain time frame and if there’s no response, put myself back on the floor? But what if I want to wait longer for someone? Or should I just keep that person in mind and continue to be available? I don’t know really.
There was something that FL mentioned earlier this week. He said that he noticed quite a few similarities between SB and my father. Now, I don’t see that as an abnormal thing; I always figured that most women try to look for men that resemble their fathers, either in a good or bad way. So it’s normal that I did that, yes? I don’t know. It’s a new piece of information, but there are still no instructions on how to handle this information.
I hope I sound like a whore or something. I mentioned three different men in this post, but you gotta know that one I just met, one is … complicated, and the other will never return, so really, it’s not as if I’m in three different relationships. I’m still single and free as a bird. Well, due to my tendencies, a caged bird, but a bird nonetheless.
Anyway, I’ve got some work to do, so until next time.
Tags: Club 525, clubbing, doctor, KM
Posted at 7:03 pm |
On March 27, 2008 at 4:25 am Julie said:
March 27, 2008 at 4:25 am
Yea the comment about your ex having qualities like your father is normal. We admire our fathers, so we choose our men that have those qualities we admire. Anyway, sometimes you might feel like you want to wait for someone but if it’s not realistic, there’s no reason to turn down other great guys, right? So basically, you’re available because he’s not shown any effort. If someone else comes along, go with it, don’t wait for a maybe. Maybe him seeing you not sitting around and waiting might convince him to make his move. Just because you might not work at the store in the future doesn’t mean you can’t keep the friendships, right? Organize a monthly girls night out like my buddy has and it’s just the best thing in the world. I like how you compared yourself to a dress, cause you’re purtyful and want to be taken out and shown a great time.
On March 27, 2008 at 7:23 am AtomiK Kitten said:
March 27, 2008 at 7:23 am
You will make more female companions…that’s what I prefer - companions instead of friends.