1st August, 2008
This Is The End Of The Week
Luckily, things improved from the day I no longer feel like mentioning or recalling. In a way, the week went by in a bit of a blur. I don’t remember much of Tuesday or Wednesday and I can recall most of yesterday and today.
Yesterday, I met up with one of the guys, DC, I had met on the online dating/networking/finding-new-people site. Okay, yes, it was an online dating site, I won’t lie or sugarcoat it. He seemed pretty alright. He was talk and buff, drove a relatively decent car, seemed clean and not so much like a deadbeat. So far, so good. I’ve been chatting with him online and our conversations have been enjoyable.
Oh, due to the crappy-day-I-shall-not-mention, I had forgotten to tell you that I had gone to my first 21+ club. Yes, I know, I’m two months and eight days away, but luckily, MK is awesome and let me use her expired ID card. Got in like it was just another day. It was pretty fun. I ended up getting a little drunk, but sobered up before we left. I went with JYL and her fraternity, which also included my good friend EA. We had a good time. I ended up being a little MIA though because I had gotten really tired at some point and didn’t want to spend the effort looking for them in my aching feet, so I sat down. As I was sitting, a dude, EC, I hadn’t met before from the group sat next to me and then started a conversation. He was kinda cute and we had an enjoyable time talking, so I gave him my number. He’s having a birthday party at his place tomorrow, but I don’t have anyone to go with me, so I’m not going to go. However, I did promise him a belated birthday lunch, so who knows.
I saw my doctor today and told him that it was going to be our second to last session. He suggested that I take the time off to just live and whatnot, but I can’t. I care too much about how my parents feel and their reactions that I can’t bear to put them through more stress than what they’ve already been through, you know? Sure, it would be ideal and probably the best thing in order for me to figure out why it is I can’t properly do my studies, but I can’t do that to my parents. I need to finish school if not for me but for them. I know, I was saying a few months ago that I was studying for them, but I have to stop all this bull shit and suck it up.
Now I’m at my parents for the weekend. We’re honoring the death of my mother’s parents so all of my relatives from her side are here. I’m afraid that they’ll still call me fat though, even though I’ve lost weight since they saw me last year. I saw a side profile picture of my and I hated the way my arms looked. Sure, when working out, they look buff, but when not… they look fat. It saddens me. I’m at an okay weight, but I still feel like I need to lose a few more pounds. I can’t go too far though because then I won’t be able to donate blood. (They have a 110lb minimum.)
Anyway, it’s late. I have a dentist appointment tomorrow and some homework I want to get done. Yes, it’s a Friday night, but oh well.
On a side note: Oh crap, there’s a spider in this room. FUCK.
Tags: clubbing, DC, dentist, doctor, EA, EC, family, JYL, MK, Temple
Posted at 11:07 pm |
On August 2, 2008 at 11:18 am Julie said:
August 2, 2008 at 11:18 am
You’re worried about losing too much weight because you won’t be able to donate blood? Really then, you’re not even close to needing to lose any weight at all. Whoever in your family is sick enough to call a 110+ woman fat, is just sick. Seriously. Anyway, it’s cute that you might be doing an after birthday party lunch with the guy, hope that goes well. Hope the internet dating site guy is ok too. People aren’t always honest online, but I know you and me are
On August 5, 2008 at 12:08 pm Atelier de Soyun said:
August 5, 2008 at 12:08 pm
oh, you have a beautiful blog. I enjoyed reading them. nicely done~
Soyun.