This Is The End, Finally
July 21, 2008 @ 1:13 pm GMT-8
SB finished paying everything back today. As of now, there is nothing left that ties me to him except for my feelings. Not really feelings for him, but feelings of everything that’s happened.
A part of me wants to try and be friends, but I know that at this point, as I stand, I cannot do that. I have to move on and maybe, just maybe, when the time is right and enough time has passed, we may be able to be friendly to one another again, but the time is not now.
I was thinking about what I had just posted and Marie suggested that I should try to find strength in myself. I had to admit, it’s been very hard to do so in the last couple of months. I keep telling myself that the time is coming, but everywhere I turn, there he is. Stockton street in San Francisco. Watching The Dark Knight, despite knowing how huge of a Batman fan he is. For now, at least, he’s everywhere. Hell, I can barely get DL out of my head and when I remember, I remember all the bad things that happened.
But for now, I need to stay away from him. I need to focus on me, focus on my school, my blessings, everything else, but him.
She’s right, you do need to find strength in yourself, cause you’re an awesome woman lady person. Sure, there are reminders everywhere, but with time, you won’t notice them anymore and the pain won’t be as hard. I’m glad you can finally move on now that you have no reason to see him or talk to him anymore. Hopefully this will finally bring you closure.
Comment by Julie — July 22, 2008 @ 5:35 am