24th July, 2008
This Was Surprisingly Productive
In a way, anyway. JYL and I had plans to go shopping to find a cute bottom that would match my shirt. We went into H&M and browsed. I admit there wasn’t a good enough selection for what I was looking for. I went to the sale rack (of course) and picked up a pink dress that I thought was cute. To my surprise, it fit perfectly. The only downer is that it’s a little see-through, so when I wear it on Saturday night, I’ll have to make sure I’m wearing my butt-floss.
When we left the shopping center, there was a man on the bus. I didn’t take a good look at him, but he was sitting right next to me. He noticed that I had the Palm Centro and asked me how he could change the language on his phone because it was in Spanish. Just as I had finished pushing the buttons to reset the phone, it finally dawned on me that I was helping him with a stolen phone. I feel so horrible. I was so naive. I should have just lied and said that I didn’t know how to do it, or put it back to Spanish. I should have, but I didn’t. Stupid, stupid, stupid me.
Tomorrow, I’m heading down to my parents for the day to get my tooth checked out. I didn’t hurt today, but just because it didn’t doesn’t mean it’s gone. Then I head back to Berkeley to go clubbing with JYL to my first 21+ club! Yes, I know that I’m not quite yet 21, but my roommate lent me her expired license, so hopefully, I don’t get caught!
Anyways, tired. I need to finish packing or at least figuring out what I need to take with me tomorrow.
Tags: dentist, family, JYL, shopping
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24th July, 2008
This Was Just Another Few Days… Kind Of
First off, I have a horrible toothache. Actually, thinking about it, it’s the first toothache I’ve ever had that didn’t result from some sort of dental work. It was strange because it started hurting midday, in between my brushing and my next meal. It started to hurt so bad that I had to take two Advils instead of one. I’ve got me a dentist appointment for this Saturday. I wish it could be sooner, but I can’t get away from school early enough to do so. Besides, the pain is tolerable enough to an extent where I can wait a few more days.
Second, I’ve decided that after my next two visits with my doctor, they will be my last, at least until the new year starts again. The pills aren’t helping me in the way they’re supposed to. I’m basically using them now to stay awake during class and that’s about it.
I heard from KM today. Well, kind of. I finally asked him why he had just been so turned off to me after having confessed all his feelings. Well, it turns out that he had wanted to get it off his chest, but wasn’t looking for a relationship. Once he told me that, I told him that I, too, was not interested in something exclusive, at least for the moment anyway. Well, he told me to call him tomorrow. We’ll see what happens?
I’ve been thinking lately about what someone had once said to me. I had only known him for a day or so, but what I remember is this: He looked into my eyes and said that even though I smile on the outside, there’s a lot of darkness and pain inside. Note that this person said this two years ago.
Sometimes I wonder, is it still there? If someone looks into my eyes, will that person see how much there is in my eyes? I don’t know, but it’s got me thinking.
Fuck, I’m sleepy, but I’ve got homework to finish. Maybe a nap.
Tags: doctor, KM
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