12th May, 2008
This Was Nowhere Close To A Good Day
I hate crying, especially out in public where people can see me and be mildly concerned. Those who are of really good nature will ask if I’m okay and others will just hope that I will be okay as they pass by.
I’ve lost another one, another good friend. In fact, there’s very few left in my life that I know I can easily turn to. KM, before everything got all messy and complicated, he was my friend. He was someone I could have seen on a relatively regular basis and now, we can’t even see each other at least once a month.
Civility. That’s all I have left to offer. How can I possibly accept him back as my friend now knowing that he basically dismissed my feelings as nonsense? How can I accept him back if it doesn’t seem like he’s trying at all? I can’t. Too much now, there’s just too much.
It’s the same shit all over again.
If two people grow out of each other at the same time, there’s less pain. But when one just changes and the other is left hanging there, it’s painful as all hell. And to know that this is not only the first time, but the second time I’ve been left hanging… well, let’s just say it’s not my greatest day.
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