29th March, 2008
This Was A Long Day
For some reason, today felt rather long. I got up around 9:30 or so, but my errands and my waiting around for things took quite some time.
I should probably mention that I am currently at my parents’ place right now, shouldn’t I? Well, I asked my mother to borrow her car this morning in order to run a few errands. On my list were: fix my phone, go to Bed Bath and Beyond, get a hair cut, get some good coffee, and buy shoes for the wedding. All but the last took about two and half hours. Then it was about another half hour or so at the shoe store, but in between that, I thought that I’d stop by and see my good friend, C, at his work place. I ended up waiting for him because when I arrived, he was currently on his lunch break. Go figure, right?
After shoe shopping, I thought that I would go to KM’s work place just to see what was going on. I hadn’t been able to see him or talk to him in the last few weeks about what we were going to do, so I figured that I would surprise him at work. We got to talking a little bit and he revealed that the timing was just not right. He has a lot going on for him right now and he’s just not ready to be in that kind of a position. I completely understand that and I just wish that he could have been able to tell me this sooner, you know?
We may or may not be able to see each other tomorrow, but I hope that we do. I know now that I shouldn’t take myself off the market just for him, but I will leave that door open for him whenever he is ready and I am available to do that with him.
I don’t know what came over me, but as I was waiting for him to finish with a client, I could feel everything in my body so much more. My heart was beating so hard, I thought it was going to fly out. Now, I know that sounded a bit cheesy and also a bit serious, it’s been a while since I’ve been able to feel this jittery about someone, you know?
But sadly, this jittery feeling will not remain. It must go and I will someday find it again.
Speaking of love, I just finished reading a book, The Alchemist. There are a few good quotes in there and I’d like to share one or two with you:
“I’m going away,” he said. “And I want you to know that I’m coming back. I love you because…”
“Don’t say anything,” Fatima interrupted. “One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.”
It’s a real good book and definitely offers a lot of insight to the different things of the world. It helped put some things into perspective for me and I think that I’ve finally accepted the past and the present.
Maktub (arabic) - It is written.
Tags: family, KM, shopping
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