14th January, 2008
This Is Some Thinking
For some reason, this thought came into my head:
Am I too hard on people sometime? Which totally contradicts me entirely since I consider myself to be quite the forgiving person, but for some reason, I feel as if I’m one to hold onto a grudge for too long.
For example, I feel as if a part of me still resents my parents for being the type of parents that didn’t fit into the parent-mold that I wanted them to be as a teenager. I was very angry, I was very in the mood to dislike them quite a bit. Of course, that’s not exactly the case now, but I feel as if the reason why I don’t want to go home is because of the lingering feelings of resentment.
Then there’s the best friend. Well, former I suppose. Not that I gave her much of a chance to do too much in the last year or so, but I feel as if I’ve just been freezing her out for too long, or not long enough? I don’t know anymore. I’m just rambling on at this point, but it’s an awfully odd feeling.
Maybe I just need more time to be able to not care anymore. I don’t know. I’ve really been in the mood to be quite indecisive lately and that completely sucks balls.
Tags: family, VN
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