3rd January, 2008
This Is The Plan
I am going to lunch with KM. To lunch. I spent all this time shopping, planning, preparing, fretting (although I know I shouldn’t have been fretting) for a dinner which is now a lunch. Well, he has the day off tomorrow, but there’s a mandatory staff meeting at eight in the morning and so it would be more convenient for him to show up for lunch.
I’m still going to wear my new shoes, damn it.
I was told not to obsess, not to worry, not to think too much into it and well, I did and look where it got me.
I know, I’m still going to enjoy the moment, enjoy our lunch, but I’m still disappointed. I shouldn’t have been disappointed, but what can you expect after this?
Okay, back to my Gilmore Girls.
Tags: KM
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3rd January, 2008
This Is The Shopping Day
I hate being nervous. It makes me so uneasy, thus the “nervous” part of it all. I spent a total of five hours today shopping. Why did I go shopping despite being pressed for money? Well, KM and I are going out on Friday night (assuming all goes well) and it is going to be our first official date. I mean, we’ve gone out to eat before, but it was always under the “friends” pretense and except for the last one, they’ve all been pretty friendly. I suppose you can say the same thing for my first date with SB, but that was our first time meeting each other and by the end of it, it was definitely not friendly. Besides, I had prepared for that one too, just like I’m preparing for this one with KM now.
I know, I know, he probably won’t notice because he’s a guy and all, but I hope that he does. I spent five hours, damn it, looking for the perfect outfit. I ended up getting two and once the shoes I ordered today on Endless.com come in later today, I will make my decision on which outfit is best.
I ended up buying a red dress that isn’t too fancy or too cocktail, but not completely casual either. It’s a good dress that I could wear to a dinner party or something. Then I bought a red shirt that has the same kind of appeal as well. I like being able to buy things that aren’t too much of one thing. That way, I can mix and match and go for whatever feeling I want to go for.
In addition to the two red things, I also bought myself a pair of Mary Jane shoes, a red puffer jacket, and sunglasses. Oh, I also bought new earrings too that will hopefully match my outfit.
Why did I go shopping when I know I have perfectly good clothes? Well, silly me, I wasn’t anticipating a lot of dressing up so I brought down only one non-casual shirt and I wore that when I saw him last. Yes, some may argue that he probably won’t notice, but on this date, I really want him to notice. Yes, he’s already been pining for that long and it probably wouldn’t make too much of a difference, but damn it, let the woman in me do this to impress her date.
We’re definitely going to have to sort things out between us. I mean, where do KM and I stand? I want to give him a shot, but I’m definitely not ready for a relationship and I know that I still have feelings for SB, so I don’t want to jump into anything that I’m not ready for. It wouldn’t be fair to him. I also want to be able to figure out my life too before I start to involve him more into it.
There’s going to be a lot of talking and sorting out between us. I just really hope he doesn’t bail on me. I really hope that.
Tags: KM, shoes, shopping
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