23rd December, 2007
This Is The Day I Was Nice
…To my brother. I took him to go see that new National Treasure movie and let him rent a movie from Blockbuster. Okay, I admit the reason why I took him out to a movie was so I could go to the mall and see if they had my scarf for sale in the store and I couldn’t find a good enough reason as to why I needed to go out, so I told my parents I was taking my brother out to a movie. Okay, it was partially nice, but still nicer than I usually am.
And that, my dear friends, is pretty much all I did today. I woke up past noon today after having slept for a massive amount of 11 hours. Did I reminisce today? Yes, I did. It was hard not to. I remember I told SB earlier, about a month ago, I told him that December was going to suck for me and well, let’s just say that I’ve had better ones. I know, I know. All things take time, but how much time? Some have gone through a year, some have gone through less. Each person is different, I know, but where do I stand? Am I going to take a year? Am I going to take less time? When will I stop hoping? When will I stop thinking of him every time a sad song comes along? Goodness. I was listening to Sugarland’s “Stay” today and even though it’s about being the other woman, it still hits me hard.
I know, I’m lucky too. I have two constant readers coming here because they care about me and I can’t even do that for other people! I’m subscribed to their blogs and I do one of two things: I read through it quickly, or when I want to leave a comment, I wait for a few days until I’m in the mood to do it. I feel guilty about doing that. Darn it.
That and I may have picked up a bad habit. I need to stop this. I do.
Tags: family, SB
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