11th December, 2007
This Is A Cleaner Room
I left my room messy for way too long. I’ve finally cleared off the floor. Now, that doesn’t mean there’s not any clutter on my desk, because there is, but at least I’ve gone through the clutter and decided what I need to keep. I also vacuumed today and I’m proud of that fact. Also, I finally tackled the messy, dirty pile of dishes as well. Of course, with no help from SS, my roommate, but my plan now is to just wash my own dishes and keep my dishes in my room. My other roommate, MK, washes her own dishes, so I would have felt bad if I asked her to help with me with the pile. I could have just washed my own dishes, but I didn’t remember which ones I had used since I had used the common dishes.
I called the hospital’s billing department and they explained to me that the letter they sent was just for my information. Seriously, I think they should put somewhere on there that it’s not a bill. Something like, “This is not a bill.” would be nice to see. Is it that hard? I also called Best Buy to see when the order of the SatC DVD set would come in and they said to check back on Thursday. Hopefully it arrives so I can go exchange it. In the meantime, Gilmore Girls will suffice and entertain me.
I wrote and addressed thirteen Christmas cards yesterday. I believe I wrote twelve of them to the wonderful girls at Vertigo MB and the other two were to other people. One was to my supervisor from when I worked at the library last year. I hadn’t been keeping in touch with her, but I figured it would look good for me and it would be nice for me to send a card to her. The other was to written to the workers I met at SB’s work. Maybe I shouldn’t have sent them, but during the months he and I were together, I ended up meeting a lot of the workers, his bosses, and they’re a pretty cool bunch.
My last debate is whether or not I should write a card to SB’s parents. Why would I do that, might you ask? Well, I sent a card last year and thought that it might seem weird and way too random if all they ever received was one card from me. Also, I think a part of me is hoping that if I write one to the parents, then they’ll see how nice and considerate I am, relay that information to SB and he’ll either think fondly of me or realize the error of his ways and come back. I know it’s not exactly the best idea I’ve had in mind, I know. At the same time, I don’t want last year’s card to seem rude. Does that make sense? I mean, a part of me wants to be nice and send good cheer to people, but if there’s that other part that hopes. And then we’re not even together anymore nor are we talking, so why should I even send his parents a card? I’ve never even met them nor spoken to them. But my nice part and my don’t-want-to-be-rude part thinks I should send the card.
I don’t know where I stand on that, I don’t. Maybe I’ll figure it out soon, maybe I won’t and I just won’t send anything.
My sister thinks that I should write a letter first to my parents explaining what it is I’m going to do and why I’m doing it before speaking verbally to them. My original plan was to verbally tell them, yell some stuff back and forth, then either give them a pre-written letter, or write a letter. I’m not sure which one works best right now. I know that once they hear the news, no matter the form of communication, they will be upset and they will most definitely yell.
I sat in a coffee shop today. My main motive was to meet someone. Why? Well, one of the nurses that helped to check me into the psych ward was telling me her story and in her story, she mentioned that when she was sitting in a coffee shop near my place, she would meet so many people. So I thought, maybe I’m not entirely ready yet, but it doesn’t hurt to make a new friend, right? Unfortunately, for this particular visit, I made no new friends, but I did finish reading through Ellen Schreiber’s second installation of Vampire Kisses. I don’t remember how far up it goes, but I’ve got book three with me.
I like books, I just wish I would read them more often.
I need to find a job too. I think my first plan for now is to find a night job. The day job, whether it be a full-time or part-time can come later after the break. I also need to update my resume a bit to reflect my current job status.
I’m really loving my new hair. I look so cute when I flip it out. Oh, my mom’s going to flip too once she sees my hair. I’m also afraid of that, but not so much of the big news. It’s okay, I’ll live. I’ll make sure of that.
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