9th December, 2007
This Was The Crying
For some reason, I always seem to cry in church. I usually do right after I take the Eucharist and am praying because I usually thank Him for all that I have. I cry because I am grateful, because I am happy. Well, today, every time that we began to sing, I felt very emotional and when I prayed, it was no longer tears of joy and gratitude, but tears of sadness.
In one week, it will be the 16th of December. And you know what? He probably won’t even remember it for two reasons. One, he is a man and most men do not remember dates. Two, he has someone new in his life to remember each day. I can only hope that I will be able to get through it and considering that it is the day after I break the news to my parents, I can only hope that I am still alive, and by “alive,” I mean emotionally.
Like I had said before, December is going to suck.
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9th December, 2007
This Was A Secret
So I had a not-so-pleasant dream this morning. I was at SB’s apartment with his roommate, waiting for SB to return. When he does, I hear the voice of a girl’s, whose I can only assume belonged to the one that I don’t particularly like. Upon hearing her voice, I become upset, pack up my things angrily, and leave. I yell things at SB, mostly more of “You knew I was upset with her and yet you brought her here anyway!” As I stormed out, I was hoping that he would have tried to fix things, but he didn’t, which only reflects what he has done in reality.
I also have a secret reader yet again. It is someone who knows SB, but I do not know who it is. I am impressed that this said person went as far back as possible to read my posts. I don’t think I have ever found someone with that much interest in my posts, but there’s always a first, right? If this said person would like to reveal his/herself to me, you are allowed to do so by sending me an email. If not, then happy reading dear person. I hope that after this whole SB blows over, you will still find some interest in my posts.
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