18th January, 2007
When Today Was A “Chill” Day
I still wonder how I snuck in. It continues to boggle my mind. I guess I can pose the same question for you too; how did you get in when I didn’t want anyone there anyway? I was so set on being unattached for quite some time and here you come, this little cute white boy from the middle of nowhere with his love for swords and kitties. This whole sneaky business hurts my head. How is it possible when neither of us had intended for it to happen in the first place? All we wanted was each other’s friendship and company.
But like I said, it doesn’t matter how the other got in; as long as you stay I’ll be a happy camper.
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Today kind of went by in a blur; I don’t remember too much of it. I got back really late from doing laundry last night due to the fact that I had spent more time than I had planned talking to a high school friend of mine, LV. She let me into her dorm hall in order for me to get my laundry business over with and after I did some reading and put the laundry in the dryer, I headed out to find her so we could just catch up and whatnot. We spent a considerable amount of time just talking about several different things. Something that intrigued me the most is that she is an independent student who is currently living off of a UC Regent’s Scholarship, which is quite prestigious. She’s a really hard-working and smart girl so I’m glad she got this particular scholarship.
Anyway, so I got back in late last night and stayed up until 3:30 to finish my AAS homework. I did a really bad job on it because it was asking me to do a close reading of the text, which is pretty much my weakest point. I have a really hard time focusing on the text and analyzing what each word means, why the author may have used this particular word, and what it means about the text as a whole. Hopefully through the semester, I’ll get better at it.
My classes today also blended in with one another. Music was a little easy to go through since I had known most of what the instructor was talking about, but it was still a good refresher. AAS went by quickly since the only thing we did was pick groups for our project and introduce one another to the class. Statistics, however, went by a little slowly. The professor was talking about histograms and whatnot, something that I had already learned from last semester. Although he had taken a different route, I found it a bit easy to dose off. I didn’t mean to, but I had forgotten to bring my iPod with me for times like these, so off I went.
I’m honestly starting to hate publishers now. They’ve figured out that they’re losing money through all the buyback programs when students buy used books and whatnot, so they keep coming out with new editions of a particular book. That way, there are no prior used versions for students to buy and must purchase the book at a ridiculously high price. Bastards.
Crap. I just realized that I have to remove my black nail polish or my parents will not like it. Then again… I could just keep them on for the hell of it. Meh. I only have to see them for two days anyway; I’ll stick it out.
I hate this whole going home business, but there’s not too much I can do to fight it. Of course, there will be weekends that I must spend at Berkeley due to group projects so perhaps I can do that more often.
My lilies have finally bloomed and look gorgeous.
Excuse my sporadic thoughts right now.
I like where my life is right now or at least the direction it seems to be heading in despite all of the fog. I like knowing that even if I hear or see an STI drive by, which of course will make me think of the ex, I know that I will soon get over it and that I’ve been lucky enough to find someone who can put a really good smile on my face. I like being able to trust someone again and I like knowing that this person trusts me too.
Life is good. Or I could at least say that it’s definitely getting better.
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