12th January, 2007
When Today Was Colder
How is possible for two people whose interests are completely different to like each other? How does that work out? How does one angry person be with a pacifist? How do you pair two people who are as different as Batman and Superman? How does it all work? How does one fall for the other despite knowing how different they are? How does one fall when she knows… when she knows that without Batman, she couldn’t be Superman? How is it that without Batman, she would not have the distinct contrast to be Superman? How did it happen? How could it have happened all under her nose, all in a blink of an eye?
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I have no idea what’s going on in my mouth. Today, while on the elliptical, my pain just soared. It was as if I were sitting in the dentist’s chair and he kept drilling into my tooth because I had no Novocaine. Only this time, it wasn’t a consistent pain; it would flow in and out until I couldn’t stand it anymore and took an Advil.
It’s really cold and I hate being cold. I absolutely loathe the cold. And I can’t do anything about it my apartment since the maintenance guy hasn’t returned my call yet. Damn him. But thank God I bought that comforter this week because I had a hard time falling asleep with my being so cold. Fuck the electric bill. It’ll be alright once the gas heater is on and makes the apartment toasty. Mmm.
Getting up this morning sucked. First of all, it was cold. Second, I was only getting up to go to the gym. Third, it was freezing outside and I had worn shorts. Luckily, when NL and I had finished working out, he let me borrow his sweat pants, so I didn’t freeze too much as I walked around.
Shopping is euphoric for me. Every time I feel happy, I shop. If I feel down, shopping makes me feel better. So shopping today made me feel good and today’s shopping was really for my pleasure. My first stop was at a bookstore, but it’s not just any bookstore. It’s a bookstore that’s affiliated with the public library. They sell donated and discarded books for a relatively good price. For example, I found Meyer’s Twilight on sale for $1.50 and it was in a relatively good condition too. My second stop was at my favorite florist. I bought simple lilies, but since they were fresh, the petals haven’t opened up yet. He says they open up in warm temperatures, however, this apartment is still cold, so they have yet to bloom.
After the florist, I stopped by Hot Topic and bought a really cool t-shirt, which was on sale. It was on the clearance rack and this week, Hot Topic is taking an additional 50% off clearance items, so it was even cheaper. My last stop of the day was at Wet Seal where I bought myself a nice faux fur-lined jacket. I had tried on a similar white one, but it didn’t look good, so I bought the black one.
I have too many black jackets. Now, I’m not saying that black is a bad thing, but I would like to have at least one more white jacket since I have only two. Speaking of white, I need to fix my white scarf. At the end of the scarf are balls and when I washed it the other day, one of them fell off, so as soon as I get my butt away from this laptop, I’m going to fix it… and after I watch the newest episode of Ugly Betty.
I hate being nice. No good comes out of it when I’m nice. Okay, I take that back because I wouldn’t be nice if good didn’t result from it, but there are times when my kindness doesn’t help anyone. For example, like the date I had tonight. I wanted to tell him the whole night that I wasn’t interested in him mainly because I already have my sights set on someone else, but I couldn’t grab the courage to tell him. However, I feel horrible for leading him on. Damn my emotions and my wanting to be nice.
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